abandonment

jeese i keep abandoning this blog
life has been so hectic, my granny is dying, my family wont stop harrasing me about eating when i vist them
I have not seen vampire boy for months, my friends have all disapeared & I dont get on wsith anyone at uni
my lecturers think im depressed, feel like im falling behind with my work
argh its too much for me to cope with
& still my weight is jumping from the 130- 140
i almost broke the 130 barrier but then had to go vist my parents & as soon as i walked in the door i was bombarded with food, questions & critisisum about my weight, god im either too thin or being warned that il get fat if i have something
I cant win!
watching a catwalk show the now, its making me feel so fat & its just reminding me about my own show, im going to need to get some laxitives or something before it coz i cant keep this up esp since my family want to see me more, which means having to eat more
bloody sucks right now